Sunday, October 25, 2009
~ Sunday, October 25, 2009 ~
Some things just will never get through a person's brain.
People choose what they want to remember, and which turns into memory. More than often are the bad ones.
After several years, a person tends to forget what they are angry about with another person, and gradually sweet memories are then formed.
Some things are irreplacable. Some are.
Whenever one mentioned about the unhappiness, think more to it. There are more things which happened before and after.
If I ever loved a someone, I will never speak try expressing the other way.
I really believed in the right one at the wrong time, and the wrong one at the right time. Nothing gets there, until the right one at the right time. Which more than often, it doesn't happen till you made it.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
~ Wednesday, October 21, 2009 ~
So long never blog.
Suddenly feel so emo after a bad day. Just a bad day. Reminds me of that unreasonable taxi driver this afternoon! What the hell. He insisted on going his way when we told him to make a left turn. I seriously can't stand people who always think that they are right. Frankly, he simply doesn't accept the truth. When I know I'm in the wrong, I will keep quiet for awhile. "Maybe I'm wrong", this thought will cross my mind. But he's damn stubborn!!! VERY!!!
When I told him that, Uncle, we go through the same road everyday, we don't know meh...
Small road traffic light faster one, and mostly it's green light unless got pedestrians...
You know what did he reply to snook me with?
"If I don't pick you all up, you all will still be waiting at the roadside la!"
"How much is the difference, deduct la!"
Wtf! Does he mean we can't afford that few cents. I'm not somebody who will pick on that few bucks. So, don't fucking use that attitude. I simply have no time to waste. Bastard Unreasonable Old Man! Fuck.
You just made me so mad, I can feel the heat up to my neck, up to my head as if it's gonna burst!!!
Don't know, I can feel my temper. As much as I really want to control myself, I can't. I'm trying. Really hard. Be it at work or at home. Nobody will ever understand my feelings. I feel like going to the beach to SHOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SCREAMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I could have force the tears out right now. Too much toxic. Maybe I just need to shed some tears. I feel so emo now. I'm having such extreme mood swings. I hate that feeling. Why can't I control myself. Why can't I feel happy everyday, every moment.
Why can't I keep my feelings all? Or pour out every single feeling?
I really hate to talk to people so rudely, but is that the way I actually express my feelings? I don't wanna shout at my dad, but I hate the fact that he's so senile now. Such nice man like him, the outcome shouldn't be this way. The world is never fair. NEVER!
Can I have a manual to control my temper? To quit smoking?
Who am I before? When I was young? I'm a loner. Probably that's the stage I started to know what is emo. People like me, why would we wanna start being sociable, talkative and expressive? Why? How did I started drinking, talk to strangers? Still I'm not comfortable with talking to just any Tom, Dick and Harry. Ultimately, I still prefer people who are close to me, to be close to me. I really love the people who are around me now. My life pillars. Thanks.
Some time to sort out my thinking before I come back to this blog.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
~ Sunday, May 31, 2009 ~
Recently another employee's 2 yr old daughter was diagnosed with leukemia. Jen's granduncle passed away cos of that. Why is life so vulnerable? And people who are living might not even cherish what they have at present. That's so ironical.
She's almost hopeless. I took half a day, just wanting to solve it. In fact give her a good thrashing, but again whenever my eyes are on her, I somehow became speechless. Those crude words which was supposedly thrown out of my mouth fell back. How? Tell me what to do. Please advise me.
WHY can't things go back like before?
WHY she can't learn from her lessons?
WHY don't she tune herself back on track to make life easier for all of us?
Her gradual changes had made us so immune to the life we're having now. We received all kinda news almost every half a year. That explains that she didn't love us as much as she should. Of course if we look at the brighter side of life, there are certainly others who are leading life worse off than me. Yet that wouldn't give me a better reason for living life so. I hate the life I'm having. Being the eldest, how much emotions am I handling? How much matters am I overseeing. since young. Who will understand? Who will care.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
~ Wednesday, November 05, 2008 ~
Uh huh! It's been more than a month since I last blogged. Haha! Any updates?
Had a pretty long day. I knocked off that 9.30pm today! These 2 days I'm delegated to conduct come eleave and eovertime briefing, catered to all 4 shifts including the night shift employees. Hence, explains my late working hours. It's kinda enjoyable today. Because I'm really busy. Too busy even for a regular smoke break, or toilet break. But the challenge really perks me! I love the challenge, I love my job now, I like my boss, I like my colleagues, and I'm beginning to love the whole environment. The thought of job hopping slowly gets away. The feeling goes right. :) I'm glad.
What about the past 2 days? Goodness. It was hell. I had diarrhoea on Monday. And fever on Tuesday. What the... Had so many runs that I thought I'd died and drown in the toilet bowl! Bought new bedsheets with meimei yesterday. Brought Richard for Teppan. Mum was sweet, she came into my room in the middle of the night to check my temperature. Afterall, it ain't that bad uh? :)
Oh, what causes my diarrhoea? It must be the food at Batam! Arrgghhh! Or even the beer!!! Food, Beer, Food, Beer = Diarrhoea. How could I not think of that. It must be. However, it was a relaxing trip, with the baby bra and company! Nice short relaxing trip!
My National 8 Ball Championship is over! As usual, Coach was grumbling. I haven't been practising for months? Haha! He could have murdered me if that wasn't illegal. Heee... But I'm sure you all know, that I'd already tried my very best. I won 5-0 1st round. And lost to Amy 5-3. :)
Seems like I'm having a good time all these while huh? Now here comes that sad one.... :
Just recently, I've been dealing with this employee due to his work permit (wp) issue. Somehow, he was brought up to our attention that his wp was going to expire soon. Yet, there's no news of him renewing it. FYI, it's one's responsibility to renew his/her wp, and not the Company. My colleague was actually handling his case. But somehow, she handed everything to me. That's why I'm feeling even more upset than her. Anyway, I made a trip down to MOM to settle his wp issue. I got everything settled, and he was glad that he was able to continue his service in the Company as well. He smiled. As he was working on shift, and in the line production, I wouldn't get to see each and everyone of them including him everyday. He was on rotating shift. Again, almost a month had gone, his name appeared right in my excel spreadsheet. He hadn't signed his employee agreement. I stayed late that night to clear his stuff. He was the last guy to come down and see me that night. From far, I saw that cute, fair, plump guy in his jumpsuit walking towards me. I grinned. It's you again!!! Haha. We chatted awhile. And everything was fine. One fine day, he called me up in the office. "Emily, I'm LQ. I'm now hospitalised." I was shocked by this news. And I got to know that he was admitted few days back due to stomach ulcer. I thought it wasn't that serious, so I told him that he must let me know once he's discharged. He agreed and we ended our conversation. A day had passed. I called him up. "Hi LQ, so how are you today? When will you be discharged?" I was stunned by what I heard him over the phone. "I don't know. Doctor says I might be diagnosed Leukemia." HUHHHH??????!!!!!!!! How is that possible man! I couldn't believe my ears!!!! Well, just keep me updated ok?! I passed his message to my colleague and manager. We waited and waited. Got the nurse to liase with the Hospital. In the noon, everything was confirmed. LQ was diagnosed with Leukemia. I went down to see him that on that week. He was very weak. Yet, he didn't want us to inform his parents.
I think I do not want to pen every single detail down as it would badly affect my feelings once again. He passed away 13 days after he was being diagnosed. I was so upset. To think that I'd talked to him, smoked with him, smiled at him, and now he's gone. From the picture of him alive, to him lying on the bed in the isolation ward, to him died on that bed after much struggle, to him all dressed up in the coffin, it's really heart-breaking. I broke into tears at the Singapore Casket finally. He's gone. All gone. Unbelievable. May you rest in peace, Li Qiang. Your family, friends and colleagues will always remember you.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
~ Tuesday, September 23, 2008 ~
A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.
SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'
DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.
SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'
DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.
SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?' DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'
SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down. SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'
The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'
The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door. The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money? After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think: Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.
'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.
'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.
'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man.
'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.' The little boy sat straight up, smiling.
'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled.
Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills. The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.
'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.
'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.
'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'
The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.
It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love. If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family and friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.
Monday, September 08, 2008
~ Monday, September 08, 2008 ~
Finally had a good hairdo. Been so frustrated lately, probably due to the weather, my hair, and the fats. So just do away with that long and messy hair, which Meimei termed it as "grass". Feel so fresh again! :)
Took a half day leave intention for the abovementioned. As I was on my way home, I was kinda lost. So many things I was pondering on. So many events and questions running through my mind. What do I want in life? First thing that came into my mind was career. What is it that I want to do? Am I happy working as a HR person? What is it that would really excite me when we talk about work? I feel so aimless once again. Frankly speaking, I really hate to be trapped inside an office 24/7, doing paper work and stuffs like that. I do enjoy talking to people, yet not too many. I'd prefer one to one. I like to learn about different kinda people. In fact, I would be really happy if I can get compliments by my excellent service. Perhaps I should be in the service line, instead of doing a 9-5 routine job. Fortunately, here in my current work place is not so much of routine as compared to my previous employment. At least I do meet challenges, I do meet different levels of human. Still, being tied up in the office is rather boring. And Arians do get bored easily. Arians needed to be recognised for good work done. Arians need plenty of challenges and high targets to be achieved. That's our motivation I guessed. Kinda sad that I couldn't find all of the above most of the times. This is the time when I begin to reconsider, should I continue doing HR, or changing a new industry can trigger my motivation towards work. Something is wrong somewhere. So demoralising. I hate the feeling. I'm not young anymore. Yet I'm not doing what I'm capable of.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
~ Sunday, July 27, 2008 ~
Enough of insults and humilation to my skills in pool. In fact I don't really understand why must people who know least about a profession be commenting so much in it. Of course I do know that their remarks are unworthy, but it just ain't easy to not take it to heart, you know what I mean. Pool means so much to me, it's just that, now, here in the realistic society, never can one really do what his/her heart feels. If I can, I would also wanna be the top pool player in the world. Who would give me the monetary items to fulfill the needs of me? I do love pool, I do have the passion. But... circumstances don't always allow. I believe I'm not the only one...
By the way, I just won myself a carton of guiness draft and a pool cue in last weekend's event. Speed pool, 35 seconds in 9 ball! :)
It's time to put in efforts before the National competition strikes!
Saturday, July 05, 2008
~ Saturday, July 05, 2008 ~
She has grown up. :)
I saw that things had improved. The love for him is there. She has got more care and concern for him. She learnt to know how important those pills are for him. Even it means that I'm not around during the night, or woke up late in the morning, she will do like what I always do for him. I'm really glad that she has grown up and know his importance. Though at times we may flare up due to certain reasons, the love is still unmeasurable. She loves him like I do.
Definitely things don't always go the way we want it to be. She loves him but hate her. I'm stucked in between. Frankly I do hate her at times too. But somehow I understand that all she did was trying to salvage her wrong doings. Then again, it got worse each time. If I'd a remote controller for her, I will pause it for sure when the evil thoughts strike her mind.
When will all these gonna end? We're all sick and tired of that side of her. She will never learn her lesson. It has been years... really decades. Everything went wrong from the start. I'm so sad and helpless. Only disappointments time and again. He's the only person who will tolerate her, his love for her is eternity. Ya, I guessed so. Otherwise, all these miseries should have been ended about 8 years ago. Now that he's a changed person, he's lost his mind, I'm the only person left to 'control'. If a person with the same seniority cannot put everything at a halt, how can one who's so much younger be able to? Fact and reason doesn't always apply to them. She won't sit down and listen to whatever I've to say, whatever we're going through. I did have a conversation with her last time round. That was about half a year ago or more. What's the point? A leopard will never change its spots.
You know, I really don't wanna be mean. I wanna respect her. I wanna love her even more than I'm loving her now. Yet she don't wanna earn that from us. What bothers her is the paper, the paper that destroys the world.
Well, back to my topic. Finally I saw her future, a future that she's building for herself. I'm really proud of her. Since 21 years ago, I already saw her difference from the rest of the kids. She's someone intelligent, diligent. She's as independent as I am. What's more, she plans her route well off even though alone. At times she would cry and whine, that's human nature, that's my baby, but she's clear of what she wants in life. I do feel ashame of myself as when I was her age, I think I'm still like a lost sheep in the farmland. No matter how much she has to go through, she doesn't cough out whatever she has suffered. In fact, she has her own way of living and enjoying. Of course, things could have been easier for her if not with us. Whatever it is, Good Job BABY! You've done us proud, and most of all, yourself! You're my great baby! I'm always with you!
Saturday, June 28, 2008
~ Saturday, June 28, 2008 ~
Same Job, New Environment.
I'm beginning to like my current job. Or rather adapting to the new environment. Everything is almost settled down. I've also got the hang of it. Used to the AntertZ liao. Haha.
Last Wednesday, I was brought to TPY for recruitment activities. It was so fun. And I understand that when you think your job is "fun", time passes easily during work. Actually I know I love challenges, but first of all, I need to know my job before I'm able take on the challenges firmly.
I'm gonna stay in my job, and prove to him that I'm capable of what I'm doing. And let him realise why my previous employment was such a long service one. :)
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
~ Tuesday, December 18, 2007 ~
Why can't confront straight?
Why give attitude?
How to work together like that?
I know what kinda person am I, people who know me can't even stand me at times. I'm very straightforward, whether I'm happy, sad or angry, it's all written on my face. I don't like to hide my feelings/emotions. If I really do, probably it's not appropriate for me to do so, or I was just giving time to struggle and juggle my hweeling ah~ haiz.
I seriously do think that in a proper email at work, we should start with "hi", end with "rgds". I do feel offended or rather being rude if you don't do so.
Everything changes in here. I'm very unhappy now I'm telling everyone.
YATCAI AH BIRDS! F THOSE OFF MY LIFE!
Thursday, December 06, 2007
~ Thursday, December 06, 2007 ~
Stop following every little step that people take. Be it an action, behaviour, possession or even character.
Stop being a Copy Cat! It is such an annoyance.
Sucks to the core to realise everything I did before, you're doing it now.
Sunday, December 02, 2007
~ Sunday, December 02, 2007 ~
I can't stop feeling blue and upset whenever I think of her.
She's inheriting burdens to us.
Yet I know I can't afford to lose her.
What am I going to do?
I'm so sick and tired.
It's definitely not easy to keep oneself motivated.
Why can't everyone of us do their part?
BzB . . . :(
Monday, October 22, 2007
~ Monday, October 22, 2007 ~
How do we define a good man for ourselves?
The only defination of a good man to me is, Richard. He went into his first and only courtship since his teenage years. Went into marriage in the late 20s, now with 2 kids. He doesn't own much things, but he never give his children any lesser happiness than other children would have. Worked hard for his family. Gave all the savings and money to his wife to control. He used to drink as pastime, but he gave up because he was once hospitalised due to overdosage of alcohol. He smokes. Usually somewhere that will not affect the healthy air ard his kids. He skimp and save all for his family, and everything for the family. Now that he's diagnosed with stroke, he turns very forgetful. He'd forgotten that his children are grownups, stepped into working life, they can take care of all family affairs. He'd forgotten whether he'd taken his medicine. He doesn't remember what day is today. So much details in life he has finally given up, letting down all his burden for 20 over yrs. Too much which I can't explain and tell to everybody. You can't imagine how nice man he was. My close ones would know.
Don't tell me someone who once go out on dates with all kinds of girls is good! Don't tell me that a person who made different woman pregnant then go for abortion is good! Don't tell me someone who's revengeful is good! I wanna see decent guys, please!
Thursday, May 31, 2007
~ Thursday, May 31, 2007 ~
Shin Bar 1 being defeated by Mischevious at sudden death.
It was a good fight for Stanley. I thought he did a very good job at e 'sudden death' aka decidal match when our game drew at 8 all with opponent team. Though he lost e match, e game was beautiful. We could see his disappointment in him for not being able to bring us into semi-finals. Nonetheless, it's nobody's fault. Shin Bar was leading 6-2. I wonder is it luck or arrogance in Shin that causes the defeat. Anyway this should be predicted at e start of e game, where no team spirit is in it, each played their own games, everyone just wants a WIN, and nobody cares for anybody. That's how I feel all e while in this yr's team. Everything was "down-down" this yr, nothing to be compared to last year, or even e year before. Ask "Jie", he knows what I mean. Hor, Jie? :)
Let's see what's Shin 2's result tonight! (My former Champion Team)
MACAU!!!!! I want to go Macau!!!!
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
~ Wednesday, May 23, 2007 ~
Another month of 'endurance test'.
This month we're paying 5 different kind of bulk payments. Yes, its FIVE! :)
Gosh, I've calculated. 14 working days left to payroll closing. I'm really puzzled to why the agreements got to be signed all at once. In e past, people who were doing bulk payments never need to go through all these you know? I count myself very unlucky. Bulk payment was never too difficult for me to handle. But with the management & union now, they signed all these agreement late and for us to backdate these payments, its not easy job. Why am I always whining now and then about my own job scope? Because it's simply unfair. All they need to do is 'SIGN', thereafter agreement paper comes to our section, that's it! Can anyone imagine the shit coming up? It's no long challenge when 5 papers come at a time. Very demoralising. 2 pairs of hands. 14 days. 5 bulkpayments. All these make me feel so lost, so helpless like a baby? Can anyone help us?
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
~ Tuesday, May 15, 2007 ~
I lost to Amy 5-1. I guessed I was too nervous, I played like a freak that day. I knew it would not be easy to overcome e fear I'd for the game even before e match starts. In fact e moment I saw the fixtures before e tourney, e shiver had already ran down my spine. Haha.. Freaky isn't it? Yeah, it's easy to say "just play your own game", when all e while you know how well you can play on e table. I knew my chances of winning was very slim, still I didn't manage to play it well. After the match, I thought to myself "I've many rooms for improvement, be it skills or e ability to overcome my fear. I will try HARDER! :)
Work hasn't been running smoothly. I'm fed up with myself today, for I couldn't do it near to perfect. I overlooked somethings, which I took it for granted that there won't be such cases. I assumed, and jumped into my own conclusions. All these now causes extra work. I'm Sorry. Yet there's one thing I wanna voice out! Even if I'm right, who would tell me that "Hey Emily, you did this correctly. Good job!". So what if I did my job wrongly, who's there to correct me? Who's there to counter-check with me? Who's there to guide me? I've been struggling there all by myself at times. Please don't counter-question me, I know what I'm doing. Try to find solutions. Work is piling up day after day. Like I'd said last yr, nobody will compliment you for doing a great job during bulk payment time, people will only find fault with e allowances which you held back because of e former! It's ok, people who understand, will understand. People who don't are just a piece of shit. But never will I use e former as an excuse always for e latter. Maybe I didn't organise my time well. Still, I'm very sure that if "I" can't do it, not many of e rest can. Anyone wanna try?
Great thing after all e above shits, issss..... my BONUS THIS YR!!! Hehehehe!!! Those from my Company will certainly be clapping, and laughing, and hugging each other when e Magical Number was announced during e business meeting man!!! Yipppeeee!!! This is e only motivation for now.....!!!
That day Coach says, "Train harder. We'll have chance to go overseas together. To train and exchange skills with other people (foreign pool players). Train and have fun together!" I smiled and nodded my head... There I was wondering.... Is it gonna be soon? Or still far? :)
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
~ Wednesday, May 02, 2007 ~
It was a tough fight yesterday. Initially it was smooth, I was leading 3-0. Joanne called for a time out returning with a continous 3 wins, we drew. It was a race to 5 match, I could have finished it off with 2 more racks. Yet we fought till 4 all. I really felt like giving it up on the decidal match. I couldn't finished all the balls on table. I was left with the last 14-ball. She has 4 other balls. I couldn't clear it, 80% of my game was confirmed lost. Her balls were well spread. She could clear it anytime. I took more than 2 mins to decide where my 14 to be placed. I pushed her 1-ball to my 14. That game took a very very long time... Until I decided to give it all in for that last 14 to try place the 8-ball to that one and only corner pocket. I potted it, the white ball ran furiously from top to the bottom of the table, and eventually stopped in front of my 8-ball. I heard applauses!!! :) I made it. I was lucky!! Everyone was watching. I was so nervous, at the same time elated. I potted it!! YEAH!
My next opponent will be Amy Hoe.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
~ Tuesday, May 01, 2007 ~
AI XIN BREAKFAST TO BOOST ME!
I think all of us in the working class deserve this special day! In the past, maybe I don't really think that Labour Day holds much meaning, just another Public Holiday. But now I do. It's been almost 3 years of fulltime working at my current Company. Not many at my age who finished Polytechnic studies can stay on a job for more than 2 yrs. Especially this is my first job after studies.
Recently loaded with Bulk payments and recoveries, on top of that, our daily allowances payments. Though this time the management really give us sufficient time to complete, I still feel as if I'm racing with time. I've my nationals, and weekly tournaments to cope with. All are important to me. I just hope that my health don't give problem, I think I would be able to handle the workload. Actually its not the workload that cause stress in me, I think its Myself. I really hope I've 'more hands', 48hrs a day, 'split up myself (in chinese they call it "fen shen shu" hahaa), and whatever it takes to finish up all my tasks as how I wished it could be done.
It's not like as if I can't work overtime, or go back to work on weekends. I can of course, but in the first place, its the Management who doesn't allow us to work overtime. Man... if I really can finish my work without spare time, I definitely leave on the dot. I'm a person who hates to work overtime unnecessarily. Cos I always believe I can do it.
I love the challenge, I hate the competition. Don't compete with me, I'm confident of winning. I know my stuff at the tip of my fingers. Paced up with me when need be, where work is concern, I want things to be done as soon as possible. I hate to be termed as incompetant, because that's not me. I certainly can hold up to what I'm given.
Love note from Boss! :)
Resting my Eyes... :)
Sunday, April 08, 2007
~ Sunday, April 08, 2007 ~
Who says I'd forgotten my password for my blog huh, BC? Hehee.. Like I'd said, once I stopped blogging for a week, then slowly many things happened, it became too much things to write, I turned lazy. Hahaa... In fact I got so much to say and many pictures to post. But if you look at my friendster, nothing seems to move. "Lazy" is the word. :P
It's been a long long time since Bong, Sinting and myself had a proper meal together. And yesterday we finally did to celebrate Peijun's birthday. After soooo long we wanted to have our steamboat, till yesterday we made it! Had some drinks over at Caesars with Bong and Sinting, we chatted for long hours. So many things to catch up. TinGZ went over to meet her friends at KTV, leaving me & Bong to have the whole night talking from pool to her classmates, work to personal stuffs.
Went over to Crewroom, Yaowei & Jiawen (his godsis) joined us. Looking forward to the next drinking session, like we used to kill all those bastards on the table. Some people are just too Cheapo lah! Don't have to be bothered by them. Imagine even me as a girl, ever been approached by guys who wants to share the table money on such challenger tables. Been approached by them asking me to play double at the last 8ball. When I agree to them, I feel like I'm such a "gentleman". Goodness! They made me feel so manly! hahaha... They are simply losers. Only winners like us would stay on table baby!
Well, coming monday gotta rush for payroll closing, which is on Wednesday. To see whether anymore funny things be coming up from our DEARRR management again. Till then....
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
~ Wednesday, April 04, 2007 ~
I'm Back~ :)
Recently had some frustrations at work, and this morning damn feel like putting all up in this blog. It's been almost 3 years I'm with SIA Engineering Company. Ever since a year ago this time, this damn feeling about my Company slowly built up in my heart. Hmmmm... First of all, please take a look at Aries as an Employee:Aries employees make excellent trouble-shooters.
They'll usually want to be out in the field at a variety of different work sites fixing things. They certainly won't be happy for very long behind a desk in a 9 to 5 schedule.
The bored Aries employee who has been forced into a square hole will typically be restless, angry, and careless with details. No amount of money would compensate for being stuck in a routine job. Money in fact isn't why they are working at all. They do want to be paid fairly and need a status position to satisfy their competitive tendencies, but even more importantly, they'll want challenging new projects. They typically like to have a sense of responsibility and need to feel needed. In return, they'll give their all and provide detailed, consistent work. They will literally work themselves to exhaustion to prove themselves.
If you wan to keep your Aries co-worker productive and happy, you'll want to give them the opportunity to work independently or let them help and lead less experienced workers. Green - TrueOrange - Very TrueRed - Absolutely TrueFor instance, the most recent case. Our annual Service Increment (SI) agreement has yet to be signed since last October due. Management and Union has not come to an agreement therefore payment cannot be made. Same scenario happened in 2005. Payment was delayed quite a few months. And last minute when the agreement was finally signed and thrown to us, we at the backend was rushing like mad women in order to meet the payroll closing date. People who didn't have any hands on experience just throw a junk of papers with their autographs on it, without a second thought, demand us to pay on the desired date. Fine! We managed to do it. All by ourselves. I can tell you we're great! Great bunch of team, a team of 4.
And this year same thing befalls. I don't understand why the management and union just couldn't come up quick with the agreement to allow us adequate time to complete the payment CORRECTLY. I hate it when I know there are errors and we still have no choice but to continue. Then thereafter back to amend again. This will not only waste our effort and time, it will corrupt the system and payslips. It's as though we playing the system you see. What came worse was, the Mgmt even almost tried to beat the timeline of 3days! For my goodness sake, in my opinion, payment should not only come with efficiency, it's nothing without accuracy!! Hell, 3 days?!?!?! Of course we may complete payments within 3 days, bearing in mind its 4000 over ppl. Yet so what if payment is done, but errors are all over?? We as the backend of course would wanna prevent such happenings, then if forced to do so? The following month we gotta spend another how many daysssss to correct our own mistakes. This is really sickening.
I feel like telling that top person to stop showing off her efficiency and abilities putting us at stakes, in crisis. You don't deserve any respect. BOO!!!
Now I'm on standby. My weekend might be burnt. I'm very unhappy.
Oh ya, last Friday just got an insult by a superior. "Get the lowest paid staff to do it." Hahahaha... What a joke. Another person who doesn't deserve any respect!
PS: Although he didn't mean it, I can't take it. Thanks to him! He stir up the drive in me. The drive to succeed in LIFE! !@#$%^&*()
To be Continued....