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Sunday, October 30, 2005

~ Sunday, October 30, 2005 ~

I had my last match on Thursday, Ego's vs Lollipop (Home game). As usual I played e Ladies Single's. I won 2-0 again! My opponent really jialat. The way she played e game, she's more like a sore loser. Actually I knew her years ago, I don't why she'd to give me a cold shoulder. I wasn't e arrogant one, she was. But I also don't care, as long as I win my game, whatever attitude you wanna give. It's still my win that matters.

Last shot for this 2005 Pool League

Bong came, Yw came, 2 supporters for e last game. With my team, all of us stayed for a little celebration, more like a last gathering of e team? Might not be able to meet up each other so often after this league.

I would really like to thank all of you for your supports like what i'd said earlier on. Without you guys, my wins would not be so recognised in a way. Mr Loh Yeow Wei, he who came every match to give me e support I needed as and when. Ms Ong Sin Ting, she who sms me every match before e game starts, that's very sweet thought. Ms Bong Hui Ling, she who give me e uhmm! e grin, and shared my happiness in every win. As well as some friends like, Mr Ng (Ah Bui), Ms Jasmine Toh, Mr Martin, Ms Jennifer Low and so many more, who believes in me. Last but not e least, Ms Baby darling, who had from e beginning seen me grown in Pool, never fail to come in with e engcouraging words, never fail to give me e moral support, never fail to tell me, Jie you're e best! You guys are great man!!!! Thank you so much!!!

So I'd decided to look for my Coach on Friday noon. Went down to Pool Haven, this is e 1st time I went down there ever since it changed its location. Now it's situated at Riverside Point. I was so glad to see my coach there, he might not believe that I was there because of him, indeed I was. It was so "unfilial" of me not going down to see him so many times. Somehow he understood and never really blame me at all! The funny thing he put across when I told him I wanted to get a new cue for a new start, he said, he can get this new cue for me, which will cost him about 800 bucks! In exchange he would want me for training. OR ELSE, "wo zai ye bu li ni le~" Wahahahah!!! I was precisely laughing out loud when he said something like that! This 50yr old man, telling me this. Can't stand it. But at least I know he meant good! I will strive harder, Jiao Lian! I promise!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry I haven't been a good girl going for training, I will from now. First of all, I need a full cue set of my own. By e way, I will be joining e National 9 Ball this year end or coming January 2006. See how's my standard by then ba!

Oh ya, continue... I went down for dinner organised by Mr Sonny Tan (my Team Captain). It was his treat at Jumbo Seafood, River Walk Building. First thought was, Kitty (OST)! She studied night classes in this building. Gave a her call before I enjoyed my food there. Managed to see her awhile after e dinner. Anyway, e food @ Jumbo was great, all of us were enjoying our food. Teammates, Amy, Danny, Simon's wife, YW. Every dishes were so delicious, we simply enjoyed ourselves. Total cost about 500 bucks! :P Thanks ah, Captain!

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

~ Wednesday, October 26, 2005 ~

I WON! Finally and again! Its so fun to win always cos who loves to lose? Nothing can describe my feelings then when I pocketed e 2nd game's 8-ball. Of cos it wasn't a tough shot, but due to all e conditions I was in, there's a risk that e ball still might not go in. But I'm glad I did it... Phew!! Now then, I'm beginning to do something for my supporters who'd been there always. It's not a great win without you guys, be it supporting in person or sms, morally or physically, I've done it once again. And I promise I will continuing doing it in more upcoming competitions if possible.

Emily! Jiayou~ ;)

So I went on drinking last night at Egos, followed by Carls. So boring actually. However, recollecting those "sweet revenge", I smiled to myself.

Yaowei was weird last night after my game, yet I couldn't figure out what had happened. For me, I'm a person who will speak out my mind, and tell you my problems. It makes me feel better somehow. His eyes were filled with sadness. "Some ppl jus didn't wanna talk, and spend time alone. All these yrs I've been like that, suddenly I've to speak it out, I'm not used to it..." Ok, if it's more comfortable to keep things to yourself, so be it.

For me, I hate burying every sorrows, cos I believe that "they" corrupt e whole mind and hurts each time I do so.

Monday, October 24, 2005

~ Monday, October 24, 2005 ~

It was a bad week though. Something happened, and I was terribly sad over it. Shall not bring it up all over again, but at least I know crying helps me feel slightly better each time. Although things might not turn better, I feel better somehow. Anyway, I'm ok le...

Usually only e closest people can give you e most happiness as well as hUrT.

"Knives don't kill, words DO!" quoted from Mr Loh. This I totally agree...! It hurts even mOre when Love is so DeEp!

Well, at least I'd a smoother ending of last week. Last Thursday, which was e hardest day of e week, I also had a match at Ice Cold Beer with Charlene Chai (Singapore Ladies Pool Ranking 2nd todate). Actually she's a nice player, what I thought. The first impression of her was so proud (lifting her head high in e lift). That was when we were at Klassic pool, I was going there for some shoot and met her & Ricky in e lift. That was e 1st time I met her. 2nd time was at my Home Ground, Ego's 2. I lost to her 2-0, also e first time playing against her. Then, last week at Ice cold beer lor.. She's a good player, at least better than most of e also top players in terms of attitude, in my opnion! Although she doesn't really smile, she simply seemed bothered only. Whereas when you go into competitions, you can see some real good players with damned lousy attitude! Worst thing about a Player, I think. Still I lost to her 2-0, haiz... Disappoint my supporters again man, Mr Loh JBE, TingZ, & Bong. But Martin always never fail to encourage me and cheer me up even if I lost. Last few yrs in TNP , he was much of an encouragement too! Lost liao, I just need some quiet moments to think of what's e cause of it, and reprimand myself alittle for those stupid mistakes, hopefully to learn from mistakes. So, it's really great having you all ard me, with a heart just to support me morally throughout my whole game! Yeah, win lose doesn't really matter at e moment for me, what helps to improve me and get me going, are e supports from friends lor.

Anyway, drank quite abit without dinner. Naturally got tipsy easily. They sent me home and we rested for e day.

Things got better during e weekend... and I'm really very glad...

Having e 2nd last match of e prelimary round today. And Thursday will be e last. I wished I can play some good games to reward my supporters. All e BEST, Emily! ;)

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

~ Tuesday, October 18, 2005 ~

Started a freshy Monday without bluesSss...... After work went to Bugis with TingZ and BongZ! We bought somethings chop chop and headed for dinner.
Since TingZ brought us to e coffeeshop opp Mos Burger to makan, so I msg Martin to see if he's at Caesars. Indeed he was. So we went to Caesars after dinner for a drink lorr. Caesars is a place I frequent alot in e past. But haven't been there for sometime le. Brought many friends there before also, Martin was one of them. And he's now one of e most regular customers there.

TingZ & BongZ accompanied me. So had a good chat and pool game with Martin, and he sent us home. Didn't want to stay out too late ma.. Monday say don't have blue.. still abit blue one lah... Moreover Caesars is so bluieee...~

Nothing much to update actually. Just wanna say that I'd a good start for this week! Hope that everything goes smoothly. And TingZ, don't think too much. Remember what I said ok? ;)

"Somtimes it's e environment makes e Monday Blueee... Makes a person blueee..."

Kou Blue baa..?

(Sin like e Background Color so we snapped!)

Sunday, October 16, 2005

~ Sunday, October 16, 2005 ~

Today is a rainy Sunday!

In fact I prefer Raindrops to Sunshine.

Walking in e rain trigger many thoughts in my mind.

Only in e presence of e rain, I feel e emotional side of me.

Today my family members are all at home.

Together under one roof, I feel e warmth at this very moment.

Tomorrow is another day of work!

I think I have rest enough this week already.

Start afresh tomorrow ok, Emily? ;)

By e way, Mum cooked Penang Laksa! One of my Fav.!

I must say her cooking is best of all e mummys' dishes I've eaten so far. I swear!

Not because I'm biased over my own mummy. Really it's nice & DeLiCiOuSsSss~! *2 thumbs UP! 2feet UP TOO!!*

Good job, Mum! Love you!

Friday, October 14, 2005

~ Friday, October 14, 2005 ~

Yesterday we'd an away match with Champz Billiards (inside Concourse). Last Friday I just went there with Yaowei to shoot some pool because Klassic was holding a tournament then. Against Jef Tan in Ladies' Singles, I lost 2-1 to her. Quite a few came to support me. So long since I'd SOME supporters. Jasmine, Guoping & cousin, Sam, Bong, Tzeshen & Bird, as well as my loyal supporter, YW. haha! Too bad I still lost. Sian! I felt v cold inside on e 1st game, I was shivering, nobody knows.. Really cold, I lost. Maybe I've calmed down a little more, I took 2nd game. Last rack, I wanted to win so much, I wanted to win badly, but I missed a shot, she cleared me off. : I know friends out there knew I've tried so hard to overcome e fear, e beat e surroundings and played my game to e best I could for e day! I haven't got e time to practise last weekend, this weekend probably I am going to train back! Arrgghhh!!!!

After e game, went for some makan with Jasmine they all & YW. Had a missed call from BertZ, called her back and listened to her problems. I told her that she's putting her "extreme" behaviour and character in e wrong way. She definitely can do it better. Now I know she must have been feeling v terrible, and she's gonna be in real bad mood for at least a period of time. I tried to cool her down over e phone, and girl, I'm telling you that you can make it! Don't give up oK!!!! You're e dearest to me (other than family), I want everything best for you just like my family! Jie will always support you in whatever you do, like you always do! :)

Yw send me hm after makan. Frankly speaking, I'd a little phobia on bikes, especially e roads with sharp bends. I can feel e bike bending low, to enable a smooth turn round e corner. It's scary. We were rushing as it seemed that its gonna rain. So he rode at a constant speed, non-stop for e whole journey. Moving in between vehicles so as to ensure that we don't get drenched before I reached hm. Like what I said, even though we may get drenched, our safety comes first. I'd rather we're drenched but safe! Anyway, I know you'd always tried your best! Thanks for that! For all e supports as well in this tournaments, cos I needed that! =)

I'm not feeling well earlier on in e morning.. I think I needed a break this weekend! Relax, Sleep, Train, Eat! That's all!

Btw, I just saw e TNP results in e newpaper, and nobody is doing anything to change our results. Till now 7 games, we have won 2 games, & draw 1. But it only showed in e papers Ego's 2 won 1. WTF! And what is my Captain doing?! I'd brought this up to him in e 1st time I got to know of that. But it seemed like nobody cares. All they want is try to win their games in every match, SO AS TO gain e winning bets! They don't bother whether e papers showed e "true" results. I was wondering if he signed off in our winning games. Or he just can't be bothered cos our team is confirmed losing. Well, I've sms her to tell my captain to VERIFY on that! I want justice!

The New Age Fire Wardens : TingZ & Me

Eh? All gathered at my desk for what? Its only Thursday! :

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

~ Tuesday, October 11, 2005 ~

What a day to end with... A walkover game with Boss entertainment. Only Brian Koh & company came. Eunice Tan didn't so our opponent team was incomplete. Until 7.45pm, still only them. The referee announced a "walkover" game. Well, they were supposed to be top 2 of our group. That is why I couldn't understand they let a game away just by not even appearing. Well, I heard it was some internal politics or something. Can't be really bothered too. Cos they aren't those reputable players too. Hmmm... So I'm given more time to prepare for e next game, which will be on Thursday with Champz Billiards. Though I won't have time practising, I hope I can be mentally more prepared!! :)

By e way, I really dislike people who "command". "Bring me this, bring me that. Get me this/ get me that..." Why can't you people speak politely? Can you please bring that to me.........? Simple but some just can't. Is it a habit or an attitude?

Sunday, October 09, 2005

~ Sunday, October 09, 2005 ~

Both Saturday and Sunday were working days for me. First time is this Company sia. hahaha! I forsee that I won't be able to finish up everything before e Payrolls closing which is on coming Wednesday (12/10/05). That's why I came back to do it up.

Quite a simple and pleasant weekend like I told TingZ. But I didn't have time to do some of things i wanted to i.e pool training, buying a new pair of heels, rest, writing my blog. All these shall be "balance brought forward" ba, what to do? Frankly working through e weekends is not so bad afterall, instead of spending money, you earned extra income. You occupy your time without having to waste money, in another words, making full use of your time in a way lah. Probably e thing you lose out is Time, for yourself and close ones around you. But then again, if I have a choice, I would rather at least rest a day out of a week than working through.

Recently, frequently having mood swings. When it comes to think of e problems, I felt quite heavy. I mean why has money got to be e problem always? Why are people going around jobless? Why do some people have to work and study at e same time, isn't it tedious? Why some people can gamble away with lives? Why is it that money can buy most of e things? Why is it we have to wait so long for opportunities? Why are some people so sensitive and not understanding? Why do people make comparisons? Why some people can befriend with everyone in e world? Why take it for granted? Why misunderstandings? Why love? Why hate? I don't need answers. I hope people can take some time to think about all these. There are too many queries... too many unsolved problems... too many humans on earth.

Anyway, I want to win my match on Tuesday against Eunice Tan. But confidence is lacking in me! How?

Thursday, October 06, 2005

~ Thursday, October 06, 2005 ~

Weee~ Its thursday and tomorrow is FRIDAY! Haha! Actually no program for this weekend lah, but still of cos will be happy for e following reasons:

1) May wake up Anytime later than 8AM
2) May stay out Anytime later than 6AM
3) May not need to even go home
4) Stress-free
5) Play, Played, Playing
6) Drink, Drank, Drunk
7) Eat, Ate, Eaten
8) Pool, POol, POOL!!!

Less than 24hrs more to go lo!!

Yesterday BertZ waited patiently at interchange in e morning cos AGAIN my stomach "act cute". So I was slightly later than usual. I reached her with a warmth smile received which started my day off! Surprisingly this time she bought me breakfast because of e match I'd won e previous night. BIG BREAKFAST MEAL! Haha! I guessed that she understood my feeling, how much I'd been winning e previous years, and that this year was really a downfall, until I picked up slowly back from that night! And I will continue to pick everything back slowly, bit by bit! I want back whatever belongs to me! (Sounds like acting some kinda drama huh..)

Happily enjoyed my meal in e office, though I was late. =) Alert! I received an email from beRTZ........... Now I'm telling you once and again, I'm not minding you for any negligence from you. Cos I know it only right that you attend to e one whom needed you most! My tournament is nothing compared to Jen's problem. I knew she very much needed you. So, don't pressure yourself k. Cos I know you are always there supporting me invisibly! Hee! Its glad enough to know that you'd been understanding all these while. That's why I also try my best on my part too! :)

So, e whole day my mood was unusually good! Cheerful as I can be! Whatever! Hehe! After work, went to 5-stars Tour with Celin, Yaowei, Suet, Sin to book our Genting Trip on e 18/11/2005 (Friday). The person called Celin today and confirmed e hotel already. So should be set! Poor Sinting might be e target of e trip. Haha!! But don't worry lah.. I will protect you okie.. wahahhaa... (Mayb you just pray that I don't join them with e suan-ing would be enough le ba! Hee!) We were talking about some people just talk easy like farting.. e.g shortie. Everytime she farts, Sin will have to go through precedures like analyzing, understanding, preparing, and working on it. Haiz...

These Anti-Laosai Magic Pills really works for me!

* Lian dai xiao rong xin bei ai *

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

~ Tuesday, October 04, 2005 ~

After work i rushed home as usual so as to be there in time for my game... I reached at about 7pm by YW's bike. I saw my opponent, Meimei! e lady I knew few years back when I first played TNP. But it seemed she'd forgotten about me. But it's ok. Cos my motive is to win my game today only... Nothing shall affect me!

Nothing special about e games, I won eventually! Haha!! Damn happy sial.. Finally I am playing abit like what I supposed to be. Although I know its not my best afterall, I guessed I've tried to WIN this round! I'd achieved my goal for e day! Yeahh!!!!

I finally found back myself!!!! I almost burst into tears when I pushed e 8-ball smoothly and slowly it rolled down comfortably into e last pocket, cos I found it too touching to win after so many rounds of losing. Finally I did it!!!! I never learn to cherish so much for winning a game, this time I really do! 2-0 was nothing special to me in e past years TNP, this year, this time with Lollipop, I'd regained my self-confidence! 3 Cheers for EMILY! Hip hip! HOORAY!! HIP HIP HOORAY!!!!!!

BertZ! Sin (e sms supporter)! Bong! Yaowei (e live supporter)!

Thanks for e supports! ;) I will continue to strive harder!

"I almost burst into tears when I pushed e 8-ball smoothly and slowly it rolled down comfortably into e last pocket..."

~ Tuesday, October 04, 2005 ~

Monday’s bluesSss… hahahah!

Actually not quite a bad day yesterday cos early in e morning BertZ msged me:

BerTZ : Will reached in 12 mins, mit ya downstairs.
(Before I could reply…)
BerTZ : Anyway I’ll be downstairs, gimmi a call wen u r ready.

She’s getting more patient nowadays, but of course I never took it for granted. So I woke up as early as I don’t wanna be late either. Hee!
We went over to bus interchange as well to take bus 19. I was shocked when e bus came. You know why? Double-decker sial!!! (see attached) Wahahaha!!! I’d been taking this bus for 1year plus, this is e first time ever I saw it double-decked! Somehow we were so amazed by it, so we took a picture of it. Hehe! I remembered I used to curse and swear how come so many buses have it in d-d except for this 19 that I’m taking everydayto work. Moreover, sometimes it got so packed that e bus just never stop at e bus-stop near my house. And it’s not jus one bus I’d to miss. Sometimes 2 in a row! Then I’d to take a cabbie down to work. But now with it, we have no more this problem lo!!! Haha! So happy sial! :P

Me & Sin MeSsin in e toilet aft meal!

Came to work, was just looking forward to 5.30pm (Official knock-off time). Bored, bored, bored. 17 30 lo! Woohoo!!! Had a dinner appointment with HR personnel. All wore blue sia.. so ON! Hahaa! Hakgey, Sean, Irene, Celin, Yaowei, Suetling, Myself, Sinting & Benny. Adeline was supposed to come also, she was fevering so… she missed out e foOoD! It was at Airport T2 Soup Restaurant, e atmosphere was fine, e food was ok. Not a bad place to eat-in. Afterwhich, some felt going home, some don’t. In e end, Sean, Suet, Sin & Me went to Fisherman Village, TropiCafe (a pub which I frequent alot last time). Had some drinks. Bong joined us for awhile. Sin was tired, she dozed off. Suet was quiet.

Overall for a Monday still not so bad lah horr.. Haha!

I’ll be having a game later at Lollipop, near to Outram. Wish me all e LuCK pls!!!

Monday, October 03, 2005

~ Monday, October 03, 2005 ~

This is one of my favourite! *SlurpZ* Hee!

Nothing much today. Woke up at 12plus this afternoon. Had lunch. Slack awhile. Went out for training. Played for about 2-3 hrs. Loses more than winning! So boring! Don't why I couldn't concentrate today. Haiz. Sick of losing, yet I couldn't even put my full concentration on training. How to win like that? Haha! Siao! Had my favourite salmon, chawanmushi, hana maki, shisamo, amaebi, scallops. Hee! Had a stout too! Haha! End of my day. Boring right!?

Going backwards, Saturday I had Steamboat with Sinting, Bong & Suetling! Also not bad huh... It had been a year since we ate steamboat together. As usual, Roxy Square. Sinting really eat alot sial! Non-stop. And even cooked a half-cooked/raw pig's liver for me! Almost vomitted man! Eeek! We proceeded to Parkway Shopping Centre, and saw Bryan (Wang Nu Jiang) & Kym (Zhong Qin) shooting their variety show there. Hmmm... Like lor... Headed home afterwhich.

It's been awhile since we took pictures on phone!

Pretty in action! Hee!

Met BertZ after her cousin's wedding. We went to our Cozy Bay again! This time round she can eat liao, BUT too bad, we reached there about 11+pm. The tower closes at 1.15pm! Haha! BertZ, haven't even got to eat what she'd been craving for. Keke! Well, still we enjoyed moments there, chatting, relaxing, and eating... My stomach never fails to spoil my mood. Each time I'm so happily enjoying myself outside, "she" must groan and spoil my mood!

We continued at 419 till about 3am. Drink, chat, shoot. Both of us were tired by then.

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