Shin Bar 1 being defeated by Mischevious at sudden death.

It was a good fight for Stanley. I thought he did a very good job at e 'sudden death' aka decidal match when our game drew at 8 all with opponent team. Though he lost e match, e game was beautiful. We could see his disappointment in him for not being able to bring us into semi-finals. Nonetheless, it's nobody's fault. Shin Bar was leading 6-2. I wonder is it luck or arrogance in Shin that causes the defeat. Anyway this should be predicted at e start of e game, where no team spirit is in it, each played their own games, everyone just wants a WIN, and nobody cares for anybody. That's how I feel all e while in this yr's team. Everything was "down-down" this yr, nothing to be compared to last year, or even e year before. Ask "Jie", he knows what I mean. Hor, Jie? :)

Let's see what's Shin 2's result tonight! (My former Champion Team)

MACAU!!!!! I want to go Macau!!!!

Another month of 'endurance test'.

This month we're paying 5 different kind of bulk payments. Yes, its FIVE! :)
Gosh, I've calculated. 14 working days left to payroll closing. I'm really puzzled to why the agreements got to be signed all at once. In e past, people who were doing bulk payments never need to go through all these you know? I count myself very unlucky. Bulk payment was never too difficult for me to handle. But with the management & union now, they signed all these agreement late and for us to backdate these payments, its not easy job. Why am I always whining now and then about my own job scope? Because it's simply unfair. All they need to do is 'SIGN', thereafter agreement paper comes to our section, that's it! Can anyone imagine the shit coming up? It's no long challenge when 5 papers come at a time. Very demoralising. 2 pairs of hands. 14 days. 5 bulkpayments. All these make me feel so lost, so helpless like a baby? Can anyone help us?

I lost to Amy 5-1. I guessed I was too nervous, I played like a freak that day. I knew it would not be easy to overcome e fear I'd for the game even before e match starts. In fact e moment I saw the fixtures before e tourney, e shiver had already ran down my spine. Haha.. Freaky isn't it? Yeah, it's easy to say "just play your own game", when all e while you know how well you can play on e table. I knew my chances of winning was very slim, still I didn't manage to play it well. After the match, I thought to myself "I've many rooms for improvement, be it skills or e ability to overcome my fear. I will try HARDER! :)

Work hasn't been running smoothly. I'm fed up with myself today, for I couldn't do it near to perfect. I overlooked somethings, which I took it for granted that there won't be such cases. I assumed, and jumped into my own conclusions. All these now causes extra work. I'm Sorry. Yet there's one thing I wanna voice out! Even if I'm right, who would tell me that "Hey Emily, you did this correctly. Good job!". So what if I did my job wrongly, who's there to correct me? Who's there to counter-check with me? Who's there to guide me? I've been struggling there all by myself at times. Please don't counter-question me, I know what I'm doing. Try to find solutions. Work is piling up day after day. Like I'd said last yr, nobody will compliment you for doing a great job during bulk payment time, people will only find fault with e allowances which you held back because of e former! It's ok, people who understand, will understand. People who don't are just a piece of shit. But never will I use e former as an excuse always for e latter. Maybe I didn't organise my time well. Still, I'm very sure that if "I" can't do it, not many of e rest can. Anyone wanna try?

Great thing after all e above shits, issss..... my BONUS THIS YR!!! Hehehehe!!! Those from my Company will certainly be clapping, and laughing, and hugging each other when e Magical Number was announced during e business meeting man!!! Yipppeeee!!! This is e only motivation for now.....!!!

That day Coach says, "Train harder. We'll have chance to go overseas together. To train and exchange skills with other people (foreign pool players). Train and have fun together!" I smiled and nodded my head... There I was wondering.... Is it gonna be soon? Or still far? :)

From BiRd!

It was a tough fight yesterday. Initially it was smooth, I was leading 3-0. Joanne called for a time out returning with a continous 3 wins, we drew. It was a race to 5 match, I could have finished it off with 2 more racks. Yet we fought till 4 all. I really felt like giving it up on the decidal match. I couldn't finished all the balls on table. I was left with the last 14-ball. She has 4 other balls. I couldn't clear it, 80% of my game was confirmed lost. Her balls were well spread. She could clear it anytime. I took more than 2 mins to decide where my 14 to be placed. I pushed her 1-ball to my 14. That game took a very very long time... Until I decided to give it all in for that last 14 to try place the 8-ball to that one and only corner pocket. I potted it, the white ball ran furiously from top to the bottom of the table, and eventually stopped in front of my 8-ball. I heard applauses!!! :) I made it. I was lucky!! Everyone was watching. I was so nervous, at the same time elated. I potted it!! YEAH!

My next opponent will be Amy Hoe.

AI XIN BREAKFAST TO BOOST ME!

I think all of us in the working class deserve this special day! In the past, maybe I don't really think that Labour Day holds much meaning, just another Public Holiday. But now I do. It's been almost 3 years of fulltime working at my current Company. Not many at my age who finished Polytechnic studies can stay on a job for more than 2 yrs. Especially this is my first job after studies.

Recently loaded with Bulk payments and recoveries, on top of that, our daily allowances payments. Though this time the management really give us sufficient time to complete, I still feel as if I'm racing with time. I've my nationals, and weekly tournaments to cope with. All are important to me. I just hope that my health don't give problem, I think I would be able to handle the workload. Actually its not the workload that cause stress in me, I think its Myself. I really hope I've 'more hands', 48hrs a day, 'split up myself (in chinese they call it "fen shen shu" hahaa), and whatever it takes to finish up all my tasks as how I wished it could be done.

It's not like as if I can't work overtime, or go back to work on weekends. I can of course, but in the first place, its the Management who doesn't allow us to work overtime. Man... if I really can finish my work without spare time, I definitely leave on the dot. I'm a person who hates to work overtime unnecessarily. Cos I always believe I can do it.

I love the challenge, I hate the competition. Don't compete with me, I'm confident of winning. I know my stuff at the tip of my fingers. Paced up with me when need be, where work is concern, I want things to be done as soon as possible. I hate to be termed as incompetant, because that's not me. I certainly can hold up to what I'm given.

Love note from Boss! :)

Resting my Eyes... :)