I lost to Amy 5-1. I guessed I was too nervous, I played like a freak that day. I knew it would not be easy to overcome e fear I'd for the game even before e match starts. In fact e moment I saw the fixtures before e tourney, e shiver had already ran down my spine. Haha.. Freaky isn't it? Yeah, it's easy to say "just play your own game", when all e while you know how well you can play on e table. I knew my chances of winning was very slim, still I didn't manage to play it well. After the match, I thought to myself "I've many rooms for improvement, be it skills or e ability to overcome my fear. I will try HARDER! :)
Work hasn't been running smoothly. I'm fed up with myself today, for I couldn't do it near to perfect. I overlooked somethings, which I took it for granted that there won't be such cases. I assumed, and jumped into my own conclusions. All these now causes extra work. I'm Sorry. Yet there's one thing I wanna voice out! Even if I'm right, who would tell me that "Hey Emily, you did this correctly. Good job!". So what if I did my job wrongly, who's there to correct me? Who's there to counter-check with me? Who's there to guide me? I've been struggling there all by myself at times. Please don't counter-question me, I know what I'm doing. Try to find solutions. Work is piling up day after day. Like I'd said last yr, nobody will compliment you for doing a great job during bulk payment time, people will only find fault with e allowances which you held back because of e former! It's ok, people who understand, will understand. People who don't are just a piece of shit. But never will I use e former as an excuse always for e latter. Maybe I didn't organise my time well. Still, I'm very sure that if "I" can't do it, not many of e rest can. Anyone wanna try?
Great thing after all e above shits, issss..... my BONUS THIS YR!!! Hehehehe!!! Those from my Company will certainly be clapping, and laughing, and hugging each other when e Magical Number was announced during e business meeting man!!! Yipppeeee!!! This is e only motivation for now.....!!!
That day Coach says, "Train harder. We'll have chance to go overseas together. To train and exchange skills with other people (foreign pool players). Train and have fun together!" I smiled and nodded my head... There I was wondering.... Is it gonna be soon? Or still far? :)
From BiRd!
